Day 8

Good Evening,


I am proud to say I am close to have completed all my treatments for today. I am finishing up the last as I type. Tomorrow, I have the privilege of seeing Jennifer and her family. What a wonderful family they are. For those of you who don't know, Jennifer has been one of my best friends my entire life. I would say we compliment each other very well, we just go together! She is also the "baby mama" of Taylor for nine months. LOL You like that, Jen? She carried my beautiful and healthy baby girl and did it perfectly. I owe her a lot!
Some people may not quite understand what went on with our family planning, so I think this is a good time to explain. The majority of CF men are considered infertile. (In fact, about 98%) This is because they are born without the vas deferens. Women with CF actually have a much higher rate of being fertile and getting pregnant. In fact, I would say most women with CF have just as high a chance of getting pregnant as any other woman. Which at times seems so easy for some, and so difficult for others.
So what was my problem?? Well, I wish I knew. Adam and I tried for a full year and a half with no success. There can be two issues that could cause infertility with CF women and actually all women. They are poor overall health...welp, that's a check for me and with CF you of course have a thick mucus in the woman's reproductive parts, that's another big ole check mark! So I guess the odds were against me. After seeing the reproductive endocrinologist, we were pretty confident in having a pregnancy and I guess we did.
I really wanted to be pregnant, but the facts were because of my low lung function to get me pregnant would risk both my health and the babies and they refused to do it.
I will be honest, I have dealt with a lot of different things in my life, but this was one of the hardest things personally. What a worthless failure I was! I can't breathe right! I can't have a baby like everyone else! I, at one moment just wanted Adam to leave and find someone who "worked". 
God used that pain and brought people who understood and encouraged me. About one month after the phone call from the doctor and feeling all these things, Jennifer called me. Oh what a beautiful night that was. Let me tell you, it was one of the happiest times of my life. I felt hope, I felt love, and I felt as though I had worth. I had worth to my friend, to my husband, and to God who knew my prayers and answered them in such a big way!
After many tests, evaluations, blood work, procedures, doctor's appt. and injections for both Jen and I, Adam and her husband Mike, Jennifer was pregnant with our little girl on our first try! February 2, 2011 our firecracker Taylor Mae was born.

So...that is my CF pregnancy story, in a nutshell, kinda :)

Because of my visit tomorrow with my dear friends and second family, I promise to keep up with my treatments (trust me, Jennifer is a slave driver and will keep me on track) but will take the time off from blogging to enjoy every moment with them.

Have a good night ya'll!

Jennifer and I on Insemination Day

Adam, Mike, Jennifer and I after Taylor was born.